Speedy in the City of Angels

I bought meself a car.
Finally.

The engine warning light turned out to be a false alarm.
i sent the car to a mechanic for checkup before the final payment.
Nothing major is wrong with the car
but the mechanic managed to cough up a $1200 estimated repair bill, half of which went to labour costs.

my car is only $1800 by the way
so the repair work can almost buy me another one

the lucky thing is
i was in a plant full of engineers and technicans
people who do their own repairs
and some actually assemble whole cars from scratch
they've seen the car and test driven it
so they know the mechanic was just trying to rip me off
yay.

on the day i paid the final bill and sent it to the mechanic
the warning light didn't come on at all
it came on again today
bummer.

it's strange how i wanted the car so badly before i have one
and now that i have it it's like "so?"
i guess i have no more excuses now to go out and really explore the town

my beloved is a 1991 Merc
yeeha!
no not mercedes, 1991 Mercury Sable.
simi tai ji?
Mercury - subsidary of Ford
Sable - a kind of cat according to W

W was like "i wish i can get so happy and excited about a mercury sable..." so you know where it ranks among the posh cars.
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AY has helped me tremendously over the past month or so
i feel quite bad using so much of his time but he didn't seem to mind
we spent about 3 saturdays driving around looking for cars
then a few hours after work test driving the car (W only got home at 11 and he leaves for work at 4)
then he had to take time off to send my car to the mechanic
then more time off to take me to buy insurance
i owe him a big bunch

in my quest for a car
i think i managed to get almost the whole plant involved
i told everyone i met that i'm looking for a car
hoping that they have some lobangs
some actually went out of their way to go to dealers and told me what they found
AY, of course, was the one that went the furthest.

the best part is that he's the manager of a technical department
and he went to get his whole department of technicians involved
some took time off to drive me to the mechanic
some came to look and test the car
sometimes there was a informal department meeting on what's wrong with my car

it's funny
i'm mildly embarassed.
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drove the car to AY's house today
so he could do more checks and show me how to check/fix the car
the radio didn't work and we were trying to rip it out to fix it
we couldn't rip it out, but we ripped out the fuse box to check instead

that's the thing i love abt having a beat up car
just take it apart why don't we
if it's a brand new VW Beatle i'm not gonna let anyone come within a mile of it with a screwdriver
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After the quick lesson on car mechanics
AY and i went for a spin
i thought it was a quick spin around town to go for lunch
it became a 3 hour ride that got us lost in Tennesse

suddenly i'm on a long road that is horribly narrow with speeding trucks coming headlong on one side and on the other it's a plunging valley.
did i mention my biggest problem is staying in the lane?
after hours of that i got damn dazed
i swear i saw mirages
pools of water on the road but disappeared when i got there

AY tried to make me do a U turn by turning into a muddy ditch
my reflexes said no because it looked like we'd get stuck in the mud
and also course it's damn dirty
so i stopped in the middle of the road
AY nearly bit my head off
"if there's a speeding truck behind you we'd be flat now!!"

it was tremendously tiring
and stressful
the ride was too long and too traumatic
so now i dun like driving anymore
on the 2nd day i own the car!

i drove the car on my own for the first time back from AY's house
it was nervewrecking too cos i'm not familiar with the roads
but still when i drive on my own i think it's more relaxing
no one's expectations to live up to
which explains why i nearly got into accidents a few times
like swerving into the wrong lane (but empty thankfully)
and one really heng one where i almost turned out without checking if there're cars coming
i put my foot on the acc and suddenly this car sped across me
that's a big one. phew.

so i'm still tired. very tired. too much going on.
the good thing abt our little tennesse adventure is that now when i'm on the big normal city roads i have no problems keeping in the lane anymore.
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the past week i've been running around getting the merc done
that i neglected work a little
now i feel guilty and bummy
i'm lost again
i'm pretty much given a free rein here
so it's up to me to plot what i wanna get out of this stint

a lot of the enginneers here work their way up
while i parachuted to the top
which means i have ice kachang foundation
so i thought i should spend this time working my way down to build up my foundation
but i get messed up when i keep getting questions like "you're an engineer and they make you do this?"
for the record i dun really mind doing what i'm doing
it's quite enjoyable so far
it can be mind numbing if you're just changing parts blindly
but i try to see what's wrong with each one and it's satisfying to fix each one that comes by

oh well.

so i'm lost again. gotta take some time aside to decide where i should go from here.
i think i'll hop onto a new machine.
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Yesterday was also a sad day cos some people were resigning and it was their last day.
there was this kind motherly old lady who was leaving
and she was going around hugging everyone and crying
she's not exactly my buddy but she was extremely kind and concerned when i had hives which really touched me then
so it's saddening to see her leave
it must be hard to leave a place you've spent 10 years in, with all your buddies there

and yesterday S (who's another kind lady who helped with my hives) handed in her 2 weeks notice.
i've been edging W to get S to stay since S is his buddy. W thinks i'm nuts.

W and the new temp seem to be obsessed with this korean lady working behind us. W says the temp keeps staring at her. i doubt it since she's kind of old for him and i've been edging W to get to know her. W thinks i'm nuts.

"go talk to her. you think she's hot right?"
"yeah know how i know? she told me!"
(she was in front of the fan then)
"tell her she's hot. do you think she'll kick your ass?"
"yeah! she looks like she can be fiery. she's not as...happy and contended as you are."

then we turned our attention to the "hot girl who never lets down her hair" when she swayed past us.

see how efficient we are when we're working.

AY is astonished that W and I talk about things like waitresses in Hooters ("Hooters is NOT a family restaurant!" "yes it is!") and prostitutes in Geylang. He said he was blushing and it's not something to talk to a lady about and ten minutes later when i asked about his heart condition he told me he can do anything a man half his age can do, if not better. *if you know what i mean* he winked.
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i'm beginning to miss singlish.
there are times when some of the singlish words are so nice and appropriate for the occasion
but i'm the only one who understands so i can't use it
i tried teaching W some Singlish

"you are STONE-ING???"

i gave up.

Singlish has a unique flavor to it, i dun think we should stamp it out completely. it's cute.

of course singlish is not the only thing W has fun with. he's been telling everyone
"her favourite soccer team is hotspurs. not just spurs, but HOTspurs."
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i need some new juggling clubs.

Festival of Dreams

who what when how why where

who:

started by the juggleress. For herself, for her friends and for anyone who wants to jump on board. I've a feeling it'll just be me on board.

what:

a simple listing of dreams waiting to be fulfilled.
someday, someone with the right resources may come along and grant you your wish.
this doesn't mean we'll just sit and wait for gold to drop from the sky
but we all need help in some ways
and something i don't care about can be something someone's been working her whole life for.
like losing weight.

i bet there're gazillions of such websites out there
not that i bothered to check
but what makes this special
is that this network is small and intimate
which means your dreams will probably never be fulfilled
but they will make an interesting read

when:

it starts right now.

how:

you know who i am.
drop me an email and lemme know your dream.
Also lemme know if you wish to remain annonymous when i post it up here, because i gossi..discuss a lot and more often than not my friends know who my other friends are.

i promise not to laugh.

c'mon, give it a shot.
it'd be an interesting insight.
and like i said, you never know who might come by and grant it to you.
it might just be your next birthday present.

if your dreams change or got fulfilled or you just don't want it up here anymore
lemme know and i'll take it down.

if you don't know who i am, email me at maggie_mee_goreng@yahoo.com. The juggleress reserves the right to do what she wants.

and yes, it's all free.

why:

someone posted to the juggling mailing list asking what our juggling dreams were, just for the heck of it.

i replied, just for the heck of it.
and in doing so i reminded myself of the fire in my belly that has lost it's way in my growing belly. i felt rejuvenated enough to feel rejuvenated for a day.

incredibly, someone replied. by sheer chance and coincidence he had the resources to help me.

phenomenally, by sheer chance and coincidence i dun have the resources to help myself.

it dawned on me though, that by verbalising (in a written form) what we want, we remind ourselves of what we want and why sitting on our asses won't help us get there. We also give chance a chance by chanting chan chan. someone might come by with the right tools. we can all do with a little help.

where:

it starts right here.
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dreamt by the juggleress on 26 feb 2005

i'm a big fan of lighted props. Also a big fan of "creative" juggling where they do wonders with just 3 balls. i think juggling on a unicycle is grand too. so is 5 clubs.

One of my juggling dreams is to attend a big juggling convention with my fellow juggler friends.

another dream is to have some sort of juggling concert in singapore. an indoor stage (UCC? LT13? Jubilee hall?) where we can play with the lights and sounds, a night of different themes and styles of juggling, open to the public for a minimal fee just to cover costs. well since it's a dream let's make it open to the public for an exhorbitant fee so we'll be rich.
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dreamt by Jialu on 7 march 2005

1. That Yvo will visit me on either the 1st or 2nd weekend of April.
(fulfilled in October.)

2. That I will observe nonlinear effects in my experiments that will give some kind of insights into the physical chemistry of the system. And that I will get to graduate earlier.

3. That I will meet a guy who loves God, is wise, moderate, enlightened, tolerant and tells me things that I am interested/ excited about. It will be great if he sings (especially if he's a tenor). Oh yes, and that the guy will someday marry me and take care of me.

4. That I will be learn to be strong and make the best of my life whether or not the person listed in 3 ever shows up in my life.

5. That I will be fully convinced that I am lacking in nothing. That I willl earn to give up all that I have to take up my cross and follow Christ.

6. That I will be able to play the violin well and someday I will be able to play Mendelssohn's Violin Concerto in E minor, Op. 64- 1. Allegro molto appassionato.
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dreamt by Juggleress much earlier but recorded on may 23 2005

to open/run a cafe with a stage for anyone to perform on. i'm imagining a place like Lips (or smaller) but with a stage and equipment and lighting.
Perhaps somewhat like Velvet.
Or Union Square.
But more wholesome without the booze.

It'll be a place of fun, a place of philosophy.
it could be like a boardgame cafe like Settler's Cafe.
it'll be run with enlightened views like the folks of Gone Fishing.
there may be a board where pple tag their wishes and hopefully someone else with the ability to grants it.


it'll be one big happy family.

it'll be like the bar in Ally Mcbeal. the way they all suddenly dance to BB King.

the stage is for all who want to live their dreams. bands waiting to be heard. performers wanting the chance to perform. actors who want to act. stand up comics waiting to be slammed. poets violinists pianists? we can blackout the cafe for lighted juggling and fire props. we can do whatever we want in the name of fun. we can have a foam party if you promise to help clean up.

we can change the name of the cafe every fortnight to confuse everyone. (and if the signboard company sponsors.)

food and drinks are supplements to the giant party. and the financial lifeline i suspect.

that, is the vision.
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dreamt by Juggleress on dec 11 2005

1.) to be a real engineer in the medical field.

2.) to travel with friends to regional countries.

3.) to put up "Lunchbox and Cheesebun!" and "Spelling! or Chendol?" before 27

4) to be Friends with friends, start on a clean slate, where there are no prejudices, no recognition, and life happens. (Boy that is cryptic!)

5) to always remember to utilise the advantage of the situation. Convert weakness to strength.
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Late Night with Cornflakes

i am so tired
24 hours is just not enough to do mundane things

short summary of the week or so that passed
hopefully can finish before i doze off

The plant's still restructuring
some got demoted, some got laid off
new temps got hired

W's not officially supposed to be on our team
so when we heard about the new temp we all assumed W's going to his original team
their work bench is in this cage right in the middle of the plant
W calls it a pig pen

so this week i've been telling everyone who passed by me that W's gone to his pig pen

"i'm still on this team you know, i just need to cover somebody else's duty for these few days"
"oh oh...i told everyone you've gone to your pig pen"
"you better retract your sentences then lady. where's my chair?"
"er...it's at the pig pen. oops."

the new temp's our age...and very cute.
and then he shows me the photos of his two kids.

W says the temps won't last a month
it's too dry to just run the machines
one of our testers take 20 min per board
R is in charge of it and he'll sit in front of the PC and watch it for 20 min before moving
now we have R AND a new guy to sit motionless in front of the PC for 20 min
it's quite funny

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i'm back to juggling
CM started a discussion on our juggling dreams
and it reminded me of mine
i posted it, and lo and behold a few days later someone told me he can grant me my wish
alas i'm not home so the opp will have to pass

it got me excited though
to be reminded of what i want to do and when i should do it
and i realise it's good to post wishes, you never know who can help you out
so one day when i'm free i'll tingle with this blog and start a page to post mine and anyone who wants to put their wishes there
one day
when i'm free

i'm trying to start some sort of juggling training regime
it's looking good
i managed to customised the living room to suit my juggling
also went out to juggle again
my neighbour came by to see what i was up to
he said he could see me from his block but he couldn't see the balls. all he could see was me waving my hands frantically and he's wondering wat the hell i'm doing.
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i pretty much enjoy working
the weird thing is i'm not doing an engineer's job now
the irony is the engineer's job seems to be more administrative and the real engineering parts seem to be outside the engineer's scope

oh well.
i'm learning and getting challenged at my own pace
i like it.
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stayed up till 4 am yesterday (tired tired)
trying to get my visual basic script to work for Access
i didn't have to, i just wanted to
only 2 of the lines won't work so it's blardy irritating
i'm still trying to solve it
shit.

and then there's the tester's code that came up to 780 pages long. dunno how long that will take me to read.
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just went to buy a car.
on the way back the engine warning light came on.
i've only paid a small deposit so it's not the money that bothers me...yet.
it's the tiresome process of getting it fixed and stuff
i'm tired..

searching the net makes me feel better.
i get forums like "the light that nobody can turn off" and there were some who suggest just tightening the fuel cap. i guess i'll try that. i have to pay the full sum tmrw i'm not sure if that's wise though. sometimes the warning light cries wolf but sometimes it tears up the whole engine.

i'm tired.

AY asks if "i'm always this independent". that's gotta be the most off statement i've heard for weeks. me? independent? oh well, i guess i'm growing. i'm the master of my domain!

now time to sleep.

no, i'm not wallowing in depression

i think somewhere in my last blog i said i'd only blog happy times
then i stopped blogging for 2 weeks?
no worries i'm still alive kicking and happy here
just that i'm too tired to blog!
i actually have some semi coherent drafts saved because i got sleepy near the end and i didn't want to publish gibberish.

SO
it's the year of the cock.
got invited to quite a few dinner parties here with the chinese community
it was alright, and the food is good so no complains whatsoever
very tiring though
i'm used to nua-ing and recuperating on my weekends
weekend activities jeopardizes rest

but i had fun
in one party i managed to beat 2 professors and 1 military engineer in chinese chess
to be fair they weren't as familiar and experienced in the game
and they put up a good fight too
one of the profs is abt 80 years old and he has 6 books on chinese chess, beginners to advanced
he hasn't started reading cos he's just beginning to learn
and he has no kakis
i wanted to read but the words are too chim and the pictures make no sense
anyway he says "in the next few years China will see the oldest chinese chess expert in its history, and that expert will be me"

he's funny

went to another military engineer's house for dinner
nice house
what was interesting was the opposite cultures in the family itself
his children are born and raised here so they're totally americanised while their parents are traditional chinese
it's interesting watching them converse..one in chinese and the other in american english
and they do stuff that if my bro and i did at home would set my mom off a nagging spree
like not wanting to eat dinner at the table with the family
and ordering fast food delivery when there's lots of food on the table
the dad has that head-of-family air typical of chinese families
it's just odd and interesting, wonder how they work it out with no conflicts

on rooster day itself
i went to a chinese restaurant behind my place for a private crab dinner with the owners
crab crab, not crap
had a tour of restaurant kitchen
watched live crabs get their shells ripped apart while their legs were still moving
watched him clear their guts while their legs were still moving
it was so cruel
but so yummy and fresh
sinful sinful

another guy came to join us
now he's full of crap
said he's a renowned artist back home, but he's a waiter here(?)
said he's here in the states to look after his daughter, but his daughter is in california (?)

he's funny...unintentionally...

i enjoyed the dinner
the food was good (tried to persuade them to put this REAL chinese food on the menu instead of american "chinese" food i've never heard of! moo shu pork? moo goo gai pan? apa ini?)
and it was cool listening to their conversation, abt their complaints and aspirations and stuff
definitely different from the military engineers and professors
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new year and my birthday were pretty low key events
which is fine with me
new year gets more boring every year back home anyway, and birthdays are like quite blah
mom told me to buy a cake myself, sing to myself and blow candles out myself.
W wanted to buy me a car
he sounded serious too (though i can't really tell when he's serious anymore)
of course i squashed that idea from his head

"what do you want for your birthday"
"i want nothing"
"yes you do, you want a car"
"i want a car that I BUY for myself"

i told him to spend all his spare cash at the casino instead

the best part of the new year when the whole family gathers round is the gossip..keke...
and i got the best deal....
mom passed the gossip around so i'm up to date without having to sit through the greetings and visits
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i passed my driving test on the 2nd attempt
my happiness and relief lasted abt 30 min and then it was just peeveness at the major waste of time
like i said, i didn't deserve to fail the first time
and to back that up i got 94 for my 2nd test with the (different) tester wondering why i failed before
the whole day was just spent waiting
from 7am to 2 pm.
i was either waiting for my instructor or waiting for my 15 min test. nothing but waiting. it must be some sort of record time for doing nothing.

anyway, i got my license, sort of found a car, and hopefully i can hit the roads soon.
most of the pple in my workplace have been warned that i'm out loose on the road
they want to know when and where i'll be on the road so they can avoid me wreacking them
AY who used to be a military guy suggested (in all seriousness) that he'll find a few of his military friends to chaperone me on the road. Like they'll drive surrounding me like i'm some VIP being guided by the traffic police.

maybe it was a mistake telling them stories of me driving off the road and onto the field and stuff.
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I've been taking rides with more pple
interesting cars they have
FJ has a 1980 truck
the insides, dashboard and stuff, looks like some musuem exhibit
the seat squeaks, the window squeaks ("you can wind it up so it stops squeaking. but the handle is broken so be careful"), and the floor has a hole ("if you lift up the carpet you can see the road")

and he uses this truck to and fro work everyday! his home is an hour away by car!
he said it's only broken down once, and he literally bounced all the way home.
i loved the ride. so intriguing and historic. and FJ's a really nice guy. very down to earth and humble.

FL gave me a ride once too. When we reached the apartment i got out of the car and he got out too. i was wondering why and whether he's trying to invite himself into my apartment and what's the polite thing for me to say etc.

He must have saw my puzzled look and he explained that he was getting out just in case i got mugged walking to the door. it's so sweet but also damn funny cos there's no one around us at all in a 2 mile radius. but he got out anyway, stood beside his car and looked around ready to pounce on any muggers. it's gentlemanly, and so cute.
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i learnt a little bit more about the company and the roles of the pple inside
basically learnt a bit more about what engineers here do etc
i was a little disappointed i guess, for a while
but now i'm clearer on where i wanna go
and this experience definitely brings me one step closer to that

for the record i've seen Ahole 2 more times since i last exploded here
(never say never right...)
i think he sensed something cos when he talks to me now (usually not out of choice) he keeps adding in the disclaimer "it's alright if you dun know"
i'm not sure if he's being nice or condescending again, and whether i should be offended. i guess it's kind of amusing.

i dun let him get to me anymore. i'm so much more at peace now and more confident of what i know, so he doesn't really bother me anymore. i was concerned for a little bit at my lack of PR skills, but i shrugged that off too. it doesn't really matter, i just do what i do with my head held high and as long as i'm enjoying myself everything will fall in place.

so i've just been myself so far. and thankfully some pple like what they saw. R said i've a great learning attitude (heh) and i think he's a great mentor too. AY, who has been extremely kind to me, said that he's "only nice to those who are nice". keke.
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after weeks and weeks of juggling abstinence, and i dun even know why, just didn't feel like juggling, i picked up the balls again. i think it was raining outside and i was stranded in with nothing to do. anyway it was a good session, i'm surprised i'm not more rusty after all these weeks.

i even went out onto the streets yesterday to juggle, cos the ceiling was too low. didn't get any hecklers, though i did get some beeps from passing cars.

i miss my clubs.
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i was going to write something about religion. just read through the jugglers' forum and there were some interesting posts. yes religious posts in a juggling forum. not spam, some personal feud and stuff. it somehow got drifted into what is a "belly of drool" after one side told the other to stand in "a belly of drool". it's damn funny. and then there were pleas to keep the forums juggling related even though "as an athetist i find it enjoyable to see 2 guys arguing about something i dun believe exists".

anyway, i won't post on it....yet. it's getting late and every morning i go to work feeling and looking visibly tired and promising myself i'll sleep early and i never do that. i'm 2 hours off my promised sleeping hour.

time to sleep. i'm supposed to wash my socks. damn.

The one with the Failed Driving test

yaya.
i failed.

i was surprised myself actually, i did have good control over the car, and besides the one fatal mistake (fatal to my test that is) everything else was A-ok. And given that everyone said the driving test is a breeze i thought that one mistake won't really do me in.

it did. bum.

here's the fatal (to my test) mistake. The steering wheel here is on the left and all the road directions are tombalik so i'm not sure if it'll be clear to anyone who bothers to read my blog.

(i'm still not entirely used to the tombalik-ness of the roads. i have to consciously remind myself which side of the road to turn on and sometimes when i dun concentrate i slip into familiarity and turn to the wrong lane. i wish pple can understand that more. let's see them drive in england)

so anyway, the light was green and i needed to make a left turn at a traffic junction. the rules are let the cars coming in the opp direction through first, adn when it's clear i can turn. No biggie.

so what made more sense and safety to me, was to wait behind the line until it's clear for me to turn. But my instructor taught me to roll up the car further up until i can turn. which was what i did.

so i was just abt to turn, when a car came out from nowhere. I probably could have shot a turn in front of it but decided to play safe and let it pass first.

imagine the horror when the traffic light turned red and there i was in the middle of the junction.

of course i had to turn after that but that was the end basically. i ignored the red light. that's a traffic violation. (if i shot past the car i'll prob have failed for dangerous driving anyway.)

i'm indignant. i dun think i deserved to fail for a slip like that since everything else was great.

at first i distributed the fault to the tester's not very friendly approach, my instructor's wrong instructions, and i guess a bit to my slight nervousness.

but after a while i guess it's really nobody's fault. the tester, whether she hated me or not, had to fail me cos it was a traffic violation. My instructor wasn't wrong too, according to CL.

"it's one of those things everyone does but you dun do in a road test. if you dun roll up you'll probably never get to do the turn. it's like the amber light yeah? in a road test it means slow down, in the real world you speed up."

so earth to all.

my instructor was quite kind too, it might be a bit of guilt i figure. He's gonna drive me down again this week to retake the test even though he's already fulfilled our original agreement.

i have to take the test in another city 45 min drive away even though there's one just 15 min away because i'm not american. which is a complete waste of time really. i dun understand it. it's not like the other city does anything special. it's just zapping and typing in particulars from our visas why must they designate a place just for that??

i hope i pass the next time. otherwise it's really damn bummer. i can get someone else to drive me there but i'll have to get used to driving that person's car. and some of them drive 6 seater vans.

it's very kana sai.

i'm glad i went back to work instead of mope at home. at first i was still quite frustrated but the more i talked about it the more it seemed like one big joke. i was pretty delirous by the time i got home. it's a nice ice breaker, almost everyone had some driving test memories to share.

F took his in the same city as mine 20 years ago and his tester told him to turn into a one way street. in the wrong direction.

"i have to fail you cos you're driving the wrong direction on a one way street"
"but you told me to turn in here!"
"do you always listen to your passengers?"
"you're the traffic police! and the tester!"

he failed.


W asked me whether i touched the tester's chest.

"and why the hell will i do that??"
"they're supposed to be wearing bullet proof vests."
"so i touch her chest and she'll fail me the moment i turn the ignition key right"


the other bum part is that the test in this city is supposed to be easier cos it's held in a cemetary. with NO traffic, just roads to test your turns. while i'm stuck in some city damn far away with kana sai traffic and traffic lights.

hai. and it's so inefficient too. yesterday we drove there (45 min!!!) and reached there just in time for the drizzle to start. and they cancelled all the tests. it's just a drizzle! but that's alright, it looks like a passing drizzle that won't last.

"we'll only do the test when there's no rain and the road is dry"

and when the road is dry???????????

yaya.

so it's another 45 min back. 1.5 hrs of driving early in the morning.

it's all just a big massive waste of time. i'm more frustrated abt that than anything else. but it's alright, i sort of realised i won't be able to buy a car that soon anyway. shopping for one is a pain, and besides that if i do the math the car and maintainance and insurance comes up to a fairly large bill.

well, one step at a time.

i need more sleep. this past fortnight has been incredibly eventful. i'm more at peace and happier now, and beginning to see more love in the world. i'm recalibrated after being massively denormalised by a huge gust of negative energy last week.

yaya. earth to all. there's hope. faith.and peace.

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"i'm happy with what god gave me. i'm not greedy, i dun ask for more and i dun want any more. and that's why i'm happy. and i truly believe, whatever happens, god did it for a reason."
~my instructor, who wondered what denomination a freethinker belongs to~