The Good, The Bad, & The Weird

All within a span of 24 hours.

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Let's start with the Bad.
The One with Permanent PMS is driving me nuts.
i've been having a clogged nose the whole week thanks to the flu virus,
and today i'm pretty sure it was clogged with blood.

and Permanent PMS is NOT even FEMALE!!!!!
I think he only gets 5 days worth of good moods per month.

He's the black hole of all positive energy.
the never ending whiner.
JUST GET ON WITH IT.

the worst part is there're only two of us on this thing,
so i HAVE to talk to him,
and we HAVE to work together.

I'm doing a lot more things beyond what i need to,
simply because it's faster doing things myself than to explain to him everything and then in the end i'll have to do it myself anyway because he'll just say "it doesn't work." (shrug)

it's madness madness madness!!

ARGGGGGGHGHGHGHGGHGHGHGHGHGHGGHGHGHGHGHHGHGGH!!

the craziest thing is that when i clarify things with him,
in the gentlest tone i swear with no hint of fingerpointing and blame,
just asking to clarify if the measurements are accurate (because if the readings are weird it means it's a design problem and i'll have to flag the team immediately, but if it's just a careless mistake it's cool everyone makes mistakes sometimes)

he'll berate me like it's my fault to begin with.

i know he has nothing to lose,
he told me as much,
i am almost at the point where i have nothing to lose,
and i'm consciously trying to restain myself not to make it into a showdown situation.

I ran to the toilet several times today just to time out, count to 5 million and compose myself.
it's been TWO YEARSSSSSSSSS.
EVERY SINGLE DARN PROJECT FOR THE LAST TWO YEARSSSSSSSSSSSS.

Some day i'll be in heaven and God will look at me and go
"that guy you had to work with, that was pretty funny wasn't it?"

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The Weird

In my department, we're split to two teams, with a senior in charge of each team.
both teams are identical in terms of roles,
we just handle different projects.

within our team we're quite close.
we share info freely and we lunch together everyday,
but i sense that they don't like to share info with the other team,
which i found quite strange since we're in the same dept anyway.
So i didn't want to hold that stance and i help when i can.

So every quarter there's this project update to write for the management which the senior has to submit.
our senior wrote to us yesterday for us to update him,
and i wrote what i needed, and left out the things that didn't seem impt enough to be in the report.

Today the senior of the other team came to me and asked me some stuff abt my project,
I thought perhaps he was facing similar issues in his project so i shared with him freely everything he wanted to know.

To my astonishment he wrote all that i shared in the report under HIS update for the management.

so of course MY senior flipped at why i didn't update HIM,
because surely the management would be wondering why the other senior updated the report on my project.
either that or the management will think the other team was the one doing my share of the project,
either way it didn't look good on our side.

Anyway i wasn't really upset,
i thought the whole thing was just strange and weird.

The funniest thing is when i try to take something out of the incident,
like how can i learn from this so as not to repeat the "mistake",
i don't even know what the lesson is.

Don't talk to the other senior? Even when he's in front of me asking me questions?

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The GOOD

Well i still thank God for many things at work.
For one the pple in my team have been nice, funny and kind.

When i started on the job, I had a lot of trouble adjusting to some of them,
but with time we understood each other and now we gel well.

Recently there was a colleague in another dept that snapped at everyone,
and gave impossible deadlines,
but she's toned down a lot lately especially to me.

so i'd like to think that by just being as biblical as possible,
pple will eventually let their guards down and know that it IS possible to work with consideration and harmony.

Every single Scrooge i've worked with so far in 5 years,
i've broken down and won over.
except for Permanent PMS.

sigh.

Yesterday was a good day.

sms from friend: "Can you make sword balloon sculptures?"

"yup"

"Can you help me make one? My friend has a 4 year old son, and he went to get a balloon sculpture in the mall yesterday. He wanted a sword but when it finally got to his turn he forgot how to say sword and said "bee" instead. So the poor kid got a bee and was sulking the whole day"

So both friends came over to my place and i made them some swords and stuff.
they watched me like i was a horror movie,
so funny to see them squirm and squeal at every little noise from the balloon.

"relax girls, if the balloon really bursts it'll be over even before you scream!"

They went home with the balloons and I got an sms saying the boy was really really happy.

the boy was happy,
his mom was happy,
my friend was happy,
and I am happy.

one balloon and 4 happy pple.
it reminded me of the cambodia juggling thingy with that little girl,
continually amazed at how small little things can bring abt so much happiness.