The Turning Point

While I was brushing my teeth today, i suddenly had recollections of stuff.
particularly of that one very upsetting night i had.
one of those really low points that only happen a few times in your entire life, usually when someone dies, that kind of low point.

not that anyone died that night.
not literally anyway.

I needed to talk to someone who understood but it was late,
so i msged Jen and Poot,
expecting them to be asleep and only getting to read the msg in the morning.
i forgot what i wrote but i must have sounded very sad.
it still amazes me to this day that both called back.

Poot happened to be working late,
and Jen read my msg when she got up to pee.

that was the night i realised how impt it is to have someone when you need one,
and how impt it is to be the someone to someone else in need.

it makes a huge difference.

it was also the closest i came to leaving church,
like seriously, not just pontang-ing.
and Angie came along, my steadfast catholic friend who always gives the most sensible advice, gently went

"When i face difficulties, i'd just go for it, with guns blazing.
i find that it usually makes me stronger and better in the end. Don't run."

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and all these recollections came while brushing my teeth!
what do they put in Colgate these days??

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The same Angie friend told me the Killers were coming to town.

"the killers? but don't they only have one good song? Human"
"no way. have you heard Mr Brightside and Spaceman?"
"nope."

so I went to snoop around,
my gosh i didn't know those songs were by the Killers!
it's just as well i didn't buy the concert tickets,
since it was announced today they're cancelling their Asian tour.

The Spaceman lyrics and video caught my attention,
especially when someone commented it was about the singer's attempted suicide.

Doesn't he look so much like Cesc Fabregas?



(lyrics at 1:50)

You better look it over,
Before you make that leap!

And you know I'm fine, but I hear those voices at night
sometimes... they justify my claim,
and the public don’t dwell on my transmission
'cause it wasn’t televised...

But, it was a turning point,
Oh what a lonely night!

The star maker says, "It ain't so bad"
The dream maker's gonna make you mad;
The spaceman says, "Everybody look down! It's all in your mind!"
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I've had two friends stand on that ledge,
who would have known?

("and the public don’t dwell on my transmission 'cause it wasn’t televised...")

One jumped.
the other didn't.

The one who didn't, wasn't a christian then.
And he went "if there's a God, you better stop me now"

He was the one,
who eventually brought me to Christ 10 years later.