Work work work

I really shouldn't be blogging.
Got a speech to write for tomorrow.
This is the first time i have no idea what i want to talk abt at all.

And then yesterday while coloring my hair,
i hit a brainwave.
i'll write a speech on how to write a speech!

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whenever i play with my hair,
it means one thing.

i'm stressed.

so last week it has all been abt work.

i have TWO projects running at the same time.
it's insane.
and each project has twice the features of my previous projects,
so it means i have FOUR times the workload of a normal project.

surprisingly i wasn't too unhappy,
although it got quite tiring physically.

for 3 days in a row i clocked 12+ hour days.
Someone even switched off the lights on me at abt 8.30pm.
Until i started screaming "HARLOW!!!! HARLOW!!!!!"
and then he turned it on again.

well on wed i was the one who switched the lights off and someone suddenly shot up like a jack-in-the-box.
so that's where the sound was coming from.
i could hear the squeaking of a chair but no one seems to be ard.

it can get creepy being in the huge office all alone.
trust me, there are horror stories floating around.
but i'm more worried abt Man than other stuff.
Wouldn't be too safe if someone wanted to do something funny.

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it's been quite satisfying so far.
funny how in the beginning i was so unhappy at the "faceless" nature of this job,
but now i'm ok with it.

i think it's because i'm getting a hang of it and starting to have fun.

Angie just changed jobs too and we agree on one thing.
Pple take time to adapt to you and vice versa.
In the beginning they just dun know how to react to you,
so hell happens.

Just ride it out.

She's taking it a lot more calmly and maturely than i did.

I've also come to realise that we can be a lot happier focussing on our own growth than on company rewards.
simply because we can't really control what the company offers us.

I stumbled upon an advert of what seemed like a dream job,
but while thinking abt applying,
i figured i do want to stay where i am for a while more.

my next project is completely different from what i've been doing and there're so many more things i can pick up.

i left my previous company partly because of the pay but mostly because i found myself doing the same thing again and again. (the boss did offer to put me in RnD but they couldn't match the pay)

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there have been talk of retrenchments.

i'm quite vulnerable as i haven't joined the company for long.

so i got quite worried for abt 30 min.

Until i thought of all the other things i could pursue.

Later on i got news that our dept should be ok.

it's fine. both ways work for me. :) the glass is always half full.

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the hairdresser wouldn't let me rebond (hair too short)
and he wouldn't let me streak (too messy)

so my hair still looks normal now.

just a different shade so "not too black otherwise your round face stand out"
and a not so long not so short fringe - "see, fringe come down here cover cheekbone then not so round"

mom saw my hair and went "got cut meh?"

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I haven't had time to check my email for a week and suddenly there're 50+ mails.
because 3 different groups of pple are arranging to meet and there're dozens of emails with one liners of

"both days are fine"
"i'm ok"
"can don't do 13th i want to watch andy lau concert"

at least most of them replied with history so i just need to keep the last "i'm ok" mail and delete the rest.

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argh back to my speech back to my speech.
must prepare powerpoint somemore for this project.

Gambatte!