Sms to frens: "May God bless all of you with a fruitful day!"
Reply sms from Jen: "TGIF! Thank Guanyin It's Friday!"
i thought that was really funny.
i told her she's super ngiao. haha.
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it hasn't been a great week.
i went a step higher in my faith last week.
a step i didn't quite understand.
so it freaked me out for two whole days.
But on sunday i attended the sermon.
which was on the family since it was Mother's Day.
it made complete sense and after that i felt peace again,
comforted that this is really a good thing i'm in.
The sermon was so good i wished my mom was there,
cos i know she would agree with the pastor, despite her anti sentiments.
i'm gonna get a CD on the sermon for her tmrw.
in case anyone is still wondering,
i'm not in this just for the fellowship (which by the way, is excellent).
i'm also not in this just to have an additional pillar of strength,
the teachings must be sound and good as well.
These are teachings on how to live life.
Right now i find it such a blessing that for at least 2 hours every week,
i get to listen to the rules of life,
and i get to pray and listen to and get in touch with my spiritual voice.
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It wasn't smooth sailing at work this week.
i'm still not used to an office environment.
i tend to clamp up.
i really miss the days when i could talk mundane things with aunties.
i appreiciate their simplicity and amusing honesty.
i feel like, in the office, everyone's fighting to get heard.
i just feel a general disconnect from pple.
i feel quite useless also, as i can't help resolve issues as quickly as my counterparts.
i'm confident though that these things come with network and experience.
So i try compensating now by working hard and learning everything related, no matter how small.
still, i'm not sure if i'm working hard in the wrong direction.
and having a learning attitude may not be appreciated in the office where pple want you to know, not learn.
it's just a big mess.
i'm not sure if i'm doing what my boss wants me to do.
am i doing enough? am i doing too much over small things?
and you keep getting torn apart by brutal pple.
i remember that during the early alabama days i had huge work related emotional problems too.
so this will all pass with time.
it's just really painful to go thru it.
As God's angels work overtime sewing up my ego,
i kept thinking through my life's goals again, and what's happening.
On friday i decided that perhaps God put me here to make me grow.
To witness my weaknesses and conquer them.
Would i break out of my "comfort zone" of isolation?
If not for myself, then for Him?
Would i be stronger and less sensitive and embrace my emotions more?
would i be wise enough to "not overgrow" and become an office bitch?
Would i change as a testimonial to Him?
"I can do all things through Him who strengthens me"
-Philippians 4:13
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The silver lining to the week,
is that my after-work activities continue to refresh me.
At TM i continually get inspired by the passion of the older members and the dry humor of the club president.
At church meetings we celebrated more birthdays and had more affirmations. They told of how much one of the birthday sisters have changed (for the better) since receiving Christ and you just have to feel like this is a really gd thing.
Juggling is going well too and i may just end up on TV, again, soon. :)
One of the things i asked the Lord for was to give me passion again.
He has answered.
“I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11
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And just as a reminder of the M.A.D journey,
“Our love must not be a thing of words and fine talk. It must be a thing of action and sincerity." - 1 John 3:18
Reply sms from Jen: "TGIF! Thank Guanyin It's Friday!"
i thought that was really funny.
i told her she's super ngiao. haha.
-----------------------------------------------
it hasn't been a great week.
i went a step higher in my faith last week.
a step i didn't quite understand.
so it freaked me out for two whole days.
But on sunday i attended the sermon.
which was on the family since it was Mother's Day.
it made complete sense and after that i felt peace again,
comforted that this is really a good thing i'm in.
The sermon was so good i wished my mom was there,
cos i know she would agree with the pastor, despite her anti sentiments.
i'm gonna get a CD on the sermon for her tmrw.
in case anyone is still wondering,
i'm not in this just for the fellowship (which by the way, is excellent).
i'm also not in this just to have an additional pillar of strength,
the teachings must be sound and good as well.
These are teachings on how to live life.
Right now i find it such a blessing that for at least 2 hours every week,
i get to listen to the rules of life,
and i get to pray and listen to and get in touch with my spiritual voice.
-------------------------------------------------
It wasn't smooth sailing at work this week.
i'm still not used to an office environment.
i tend to clamp up.
i really miss the days when i could talk mundane things with aunties.
i appreiciate their simplicity and amusing honesty.
i feel like, in the office, everyone's fighting to get heard.
i just feel a general disconnect from pple.
i feel quite useless also, as i can't help resolve issues as quickly as my counterparts.
i'm confident though that these things come with network and experience.
So i try compensating now by working hard and learning everything related, no matter how small.
still, i'm not sure if i'm working hard in the wrong direction.
and having a learning attitude may not be appreciated in the office where pple want you to know, not learn.
it's just a big mess.
i'm not sure if i'm doing what my boss wants me to do.
am i doing enough? am i doing too much over small things?
and you keep getting torn apart by brutal pple.
i remember that during the early alabama days i had huge work related emotional problems too.
so this will all pass with time.
it's just really painful to go thru it.
As God's angels work overtime sewing up my ego,
i kept thinking through my life's goals again, and what's happening.
On friday i decided that perhaps God put me here to make me grow.
To witness my weaknesses and conquer them.
Would i break out of my "comfort zone" of isolation?
If not for myself, then for Him?
Would i be stronger and less sensitive and embrace my emotions more?
would i be wise enough to "not overgrow" and become an office bitch?
Would i change as a testimonial to Him?
"I can do all things through Him who strengthens me"
-Philippians 4:13
---------------------------------------------------
The silver lining to the week,
is that my after-work activities continue to refresh me.
At TM i continually get inspired by the passion of the older members and the dry humor of the club president.
At church meetings we celebrated more birthdays and had more affirmations. They told of how much one of the birthday sisters have changed (for the better) since receiving Christ and you just have to feel like this is a really gd thing.
Juggling is going well too and i may just end up on TV, again, soon. :)
One of the things i asked the Lord for was to give me passion again.
He has answered.
“I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11
---------------------------------------------------------
And just as a reminder of the M.A.D journey,
“Our love must not be a thing of words and fine talk. It must be a thing of action and sincerity." - 1 John 3:18
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