24

24 hours a day
i've only just realised how short that is
and how much time work takes up

have been fitting in my new daily juggling regime into each day
the good thing is TV time is now negligible
the bad thing is i still do regular things like go online
so sleep gets sacrificed

now waiting for video to load so have time to blog

i'm sick again
and the air is so dry, my finger webs are cracking
blardy painful
most feel like paper cuts
very many paper cuts
but there's one big one that won't heal properly cos i aggravate it daily by juggling
imagine the air being so dry, your skin cracks until it bleeds
ouch

MJ says being sick is detrimental to juggling
but i can't rest on my butt now otherwise my enthusiasm will die off and i'll revert to the couch
my right hand hurts like shit from the cracks
the good news is my supposed weaker left hand is getting more practice (yoohoo!)
maybe there's no such thing as a weaker hand...it's just how much you practise

the weather is still blardy cold
so it's a challenge in itself to find a juggling arena
was planning to use the tennis courts
but they don't switch on the lights no more
probably cos no nut will be outdoors in 2 celsius temperature

the good news?
i found a nearby indoor club with a high ceiling!
yeeha!
so it was a blessing in disguise that the courts are down
otherwise i'd be the nut freezing my butt off out there...everyday

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This is a surprisingly catchy and chirpy song for the lyrics it has

"I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest who'd have known
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all

I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never set foot in my room again "


Jen finished our last conversation with
"you're ok right?"
"yeah why?"
"you have no love, no job, no car..you're ok right??"

gee like thanks man.
hahaha.....
i thought that was pretty funny though
that sentence is not true enough for me to be depressed
but it's not so untrue that it's not funny
it's in the grey area of being true but not true
thanks for pointing it out so starkly anyway :p

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This quote from here is kind of neat:

"Rather than put any dream or passion away, I thought I should at least pursue any dream, however silly, before my time's up.

If there are those who would rather talk behind the fences and say that only "perfect" pieces of work should be put out there, I say, why not simply pick up some real courage and put "work in progress" projects to face the world, warts and all.

After all, there is NO perfection among mortals, and any step forward is better than sitting idly by."

Work in progress...warts and all.
any step forward is better than sitting idly by.
that should come in pretty useful....

i have so many ideas i want to implement
i can see it in my head
and i see it most clearly at night....that's why i get no sleep
inspirations abound at night

the challenge is to materialise it and present it with limited resources and budget
it might turn out crappy and not what i see in my head
that's a big worry

usually i visualise or enjoy the song so much i get bored with it and i dump the idea
dunno if that means the idea is bad in the first place or i just got bored
the latter will be a pity cos i could feel the MOMENT before boredom came in from overdosage.
if only i can present and share the MOMENT

Work in progress...warts and all.
any step forward is better than sitting idly by.....
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Here're some really cool lyrics from the song i'm hooked onto now. what a beautiful song.

"From Jamaica to the world,
this is just love,
this is just love,
Yeah!

Why must our children play in the streets,
broken hearts and faded dreams,
listen up to everyone that you meet,
don't you worry, it could be so sweet,

Just look to the rainbow, you will see
sun will shine till eternity,
I've done for much love in my heart,
No-one can tear it apart,
Yeah,"