Dilbert's World
msn with lao da:
"can i ask you something....abt the dilbert world"
"i only read Peanuts, but we can try"
"dilbert world as in corporate world...no Peanuts. Do you get the feeling that dilbert world is abt talking. i was discussing this with someone at work.....in organisations....actually doing something is not as important as spreading the word that you're doing something.
i think it's depressing, that it's not so straighforward anymore. in sch, hard work = reward...but now like not so...."
"u sound very jaded"
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"if you don't speak up you can't get very far, no matter how hard a worker you are. dunno...it just looks like good guys don't win, you may get rewarded but takes damn long. it looks that way anyway....and the pple who fluff a lot can sian their way to the top, making it more depressing."
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"it makes me feel so guarded....like when i chat with this guy is he gonna turn ard and twist my words and talk behind my back. cos the way he talks abt others i start thinking maybe he talks with others abt me too"
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"i also hate it when we have to do things not because we want to but because we have to....in terms of socialising. it's like some pple are great to get along...so i don't mind spending after work hours with them. for other pple they're ok but i prolly wouldn't be friends with them after work.
but still need to socialise....."
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"i want to work for the pursuit of knowledge...i want to get things done (project wise) without having to consider all this political stuff.....but it's impossible because not everyone does it the same way....a lot of times they do things that covers their own backs but are detrimental on the whole."
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"politics....pple usually think of it as you dabble in it to climb to the top...but what abt dabbling in it so that you don't get maligned....it's not so much aggressive but defensive...."
"yar i get what u mean. it's about being wise lar. dont be like a helpless lamb. nothing wrong with being wise and shrewd (good way). as long as u dont harm others i think thats cool. it's not being political.. it's being wise i guess""
"and another thing i found out....humility/modesty is not a virtue"
"HA. oh gosh. someone talk ti-moon outta the evil world."
"the louder your horn the more it can be heard...."
"it's a vicious cycle..a sheep enters into the wolves world..and becomes a wolf.."
"i know..........that's depressing too...."
"now u know why most adults are so jaded n cynical. we started out as this on the ball enthusiastic passionate worker. ready to change the world and make a difference."
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I am not well.
the depression that i attributed to PMS is still lingering on.
i dunno what's wrong
maybe pre has become post, maybe it's the impending departure, maybe i'm burntout, maybe it's the seasonal change. the darkness, the cold.
came down with a fever today
the flu bug that's been flying around in the office caught up with me
no biggie, nothing that some pills and a good rest can't cure.
the more involved i get in dilbert's world
the more i find out.
the more jaded i become.
it really sounds like a shark's world out there.
a good advice i got in the past was to stay away from pple with negative energy
but at work you can't really choose who to work with anymore
the aura of insincerity can be very overwhelming
i went to juggle in mid week
it was late and i wasn't really energetic
but i needed a reminder that hard work can still translate to direct rewards in the real world
in juggling, the more you practise the better you get
it's as simple as that
in school, the more you study the better your grades.
you get to control the outcome, regardless of what anyone else is doing
now it's so much more complicated
it's like being in Survivor
but not just for 13 weeks
before you go "just don't take part in it. who cares abt climbing the ladder"
remember i'm not referring to that
being aggressive to climb up is a matter of choice
being defensive so you don't get pushed around is a matter of no choice
i am still keeping watch over myself
to make sure i don't morph into something i'd hate to be without realising it
it's hard
i'm not sure when the idealism will fade and all hell breaks loose
the foundation is shaking already
i'm beginning to lose direction
perhaps this is transient
my compass is twirling around in the presence of a surge in magnetic interference
maybe i'll revert back to steady state again soon
Jen says i'm too self absorbed and hence i'm losing ground on another front
self absorbed, not in a bad way, she adds (*keke*)
well....she's probably right.
the other front is not going well.
hopefully
some pills, some sleep, some humanitarian love and some answers are all i need.
msn with lao da:
"can i ask you something....abt the dilbert world"
"i only read Peanuts, but we can try"
"dilbert world as in corporate world...no Peanuts. Do you get the feeling that dilbert world is abt talking. i was discussing this with someone at work.....in organisations....actually doing something is not as important as spreading the word that you're doing something.
i think it's depressing, that it's not so straighforward anymore. in sch, hard work = reward...but now like not so...."
"u sound very jaded"
---------------------
"if you don't speak up you can't get very far, no matter how hard a worker you are. dunno...it just looks like good guys don't win, you may get rewarded but takes damn long. it looks that way anyway....and the pple who fluff a lot can sian their way to the top, making it more depressing."
------------------------------------------
"it makes me feel so guarded....like when i chat with this guy is he gonna turn ard and twist my words and talk behind my back. cos the way he talks abt others i start thinking maybe he talks with others abt me too"
--------------------------------------------
"i also hate it when we have to do things not because we want to but because we have to....in terms of socialising. it's like some pple are great to get along...so i don't mind spending after work hours with them. for other pple they're ok but i prolly wouldn't be friends with them after work.
but still need to socialise....."
-----------------------------------------------
"i want to work for the pursuit of knowledge...i want to get things done (project wise) without having to consider all this political stuff.....but it's impossible because not everyone does it the same way....a lot of times they do things that covers their own backs but are detrimental on the whole."
--------------------------------------------------
"politics....pple usually think of it as you dabble in it to climb to the top...but what abt dabbling in it so that you don't get maligned....it's not so much aggressive but defensive...."
"yar i get what u mean. it's about being wise lar. dont be like a helpless lamb. nothing wrong with being wise and shrewd (good way). as long as u dont harm others i think thats cool. it's not being political.. it's being wise i guess""
"and another thing i found out....humility/modesty is not a virtue"
"HA. oh gosh. someone talk ti-moon outta the evil world."
"the louder your horn the more it can be heard...."
"it's a vicious cycle..a sheep enters into the wolves world..and becomes a wolf.."
"i know..........that's depressing too...."
"now u know why most adults are so jaded n cynical. we started out as this on the ball enthusiastic passionate worker. ready to change the world and make a difference."
--------------------------------------
I am not well.
the depression that i attributed to PMS is still lingering on.
i dunno what's wrong
maybe pre has become post, maybe it's the impending departure, maybe i'm burntout, maybe it's the seasonal change. the darkness, the cold.
came down with a fever today
the flu bug that's been flying around in the office caught up with me
no biggie, nothing that some pills and a good rest can't cure.
the more involved i get in dilbert's world
the more i find out.
the more jaded i become.
it really sounds like a shark's world out there.
a good advice i got in the past was to stay away from pple with negative energy
but at work you can't really choose who to work with anymore
the aura of insincerity can be very overwhelming
i went to juggle in mid week
it was late and i wasn't really energetic
but i needed a reminder that hard work can still translate to direct rewards in the real world
in juggling, the more you practise the better you get
it's as simple as that
in school, the more you study the better your grades.
you get to control the outcome, regardless of what anyone else is doing
now it's so much more complicated
it's like being in Survivor
but not just for 13 weeks
before you go "just don't take part in it. who cares abt climbing the ladder"
remember i'm not referring to that
being aggressive to climb up is a matter of choice
being defensive so you don't get pushed around is a matter of no choice
i am still keeping watch over myself
to make sure i don't morph into something i'd hate to be without realising it
it's hard
i'm not sure when the idealism will fade and all hell breaks loose
the foundation is shaking already
i'm beginning to lose direction
perhaps this is transient
my compass is twirling around in the presence of a surge in magnetic interference
maybe i'll revert back to steady state again soon
Jen says i'm too self absorbed and hence i'm losing ground on another front
self absorbed, not in a bad way, she adds (*keke*)
well....she's probably right.
the other front is not going well.
hopefully
some pills, some sleep, some humanitarian love and some answers are all i need.
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