Warmth On A Cold Day

it wasn't that cold in the day
so i left the jacket home
and bounced around in my t-shit and pants
towards the night the temperature dropped to 8 degree celsius
freaking cold
strangers were asking where my jacket was
i either look like a poor shivering girl or a shivering dumbass

the restaurant was pretty crowded today
it was alright, thought i begun to feel the effect of work fatigue after a few hours

went shopping in the halloween shops again
ah the bliss
it's pretty weird how they celebrate the grotesque here
can't imagine my parents buying a life size skeleton home to hang on the front door

or dressing us kids up in realistic frankenstein suits and masks

all the feng shui gone in a flash

i had fun shopping though
so many things i wanted buy
had to constantly remind myself that i'm spending too much money buying things that are practically worthless
i came away with an afro wig, a cloak, skeleton gloves and M&Ms.
the afro wig is a gem
told Weips i bought a deluxe invisble mask last week

"you bought an invisible mask? is that a nice way of saying you didn't buy anything?"
"invisble mask means a mask to make me invisible. not a mask that is invisible! and hey, it's not any invisible mask. it's a DELUXE invisible mask."

stopped by the bookstore on the way to the grocery store.
spent hours reading a book on how a group of MIT students earned millions beating the casinos on blackjack, based on probability theories.
the book is an amazing read.

dropped by the chinese restaurant again to chit chat and have dinner before heading home.

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in 2 weeks time, i'd have spent a year in alabama.
the countdown will soon begin, if it hasn't already
i'm smelling the roses more
watching the trees with a bit more attention
(we have foliage here too)
trying to capture mentally as much as i can before it'll all soon be gone

the mundane will no longer exist
i will no longer drive in my dusty car with the cracked headlight mocking me
i will no longer stumble bleary eyed into the office and meeting rooms i now know
no more horrible american food in the cafeteria
no more working with this bunch of yoyos
no more chinese restaurant to hang around in on sundays
no grocery shopping
no halloween shopping
no time for myself

it was a similar feeling before leaving singapore
was busy meeting with almost everyone before i left and collecting photos and video clips to bring with me
it was nice meeting up knowing that it'd be a long time before we meet again
i can't take things for granted anymore

but at least i know i'll be back
a year or so really isn't that long
now it's not really the same
i'm not sure if i'll ever come back here
goodbye never felt so infinite

GB said i'll have to juggle for them on my farewell party
i bet my last day of work will be hard to handle
i hope the chinese bosses will be able to employ someone to help them on busy days
i hope the South never loses its charm

it's hard to say goodbye