Monologue
haven't been happy for a while now.
since Feb maybe?
it's like a prolonged PMS..a sense of dullness that you can't snap out of.
not good.
just the other day i was upset enough to start riding the unicycle again.
i figured if i was gonna kill myself might as well do it by unicycling.
the unicycle has become the symbol of unsurmountable challenges.
maybe if i can ride it, i can overcome anything.
but i can't, so that sucks.
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met up with Jen the other day, at a Hong Kong styled cafe.
it's an interesting place with good service but the food sucks.
hong kong dim sum in singapore doesn't taste that bad.
so we were catching up, and she went:
"you know what i notice about you RGS girls, you are all too self centred."
"that doesn't sound like a compliment..."
"it's not."
"thanks ah..."
i think it's because we're tuned towards a more Western form of thinking of personal independence. Add to that, the talk of empowerment and you have girls with ambitions they're not shy to reach for.
Just the other day i was discussing with my boss and colleague on the benefits of an all girls school. "you tend to be a bit more vocal and strong", i said,"it seems to me that in a mixed school the girls tend to be more meek in the presence of boys."
Jen and i also talked about her TV star friend.
"so what has she been up to?"
"shooting adverts for Olay"
"Olay? the potato chip?"
"Olay the brand of makeup! since when was there Olay potato chip?!"
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so i signed up for an audition a few weeks back, just for the heck of it.
when the audition list came out, i saw the actress of MediaWorks Ah Girl fame in the same batch.
Lagi best.
Me with my totally zero experience together with her the household name.
Never realised what an actor's resume looked like and what a headshot was until i sat down to make one.
only really memorised my audition monologue at midnight yesterday (for the audition today).
before that i was nuah-ing around trying to convince myself that i should skip the audition.
it's funny how these things go.
no matter how much i tried to dissuade myself, i knew that i was going.
quite a different experience from my previous job interview, where my head kept telling myself to go but my heart just knew it was not to be.
so down i went to NAFA today.
waited for abt an hr for my turn.
did some small talk with the others and they were saying how calm i was for a first timer.
i did have a minor panic attack waiting at the door just before going in, was worried about forgetting my lines.
it all went pretty well.
the adrenaline rush of auditioning in front of a group of directors was worth the wait and preparation.
somehow a different person emerged while on stage.
it's hard to describe, it's like stepping into another zone.
anyway, hope i get in, it'd be fun i think, to be involved in a professional play.
--------------------------------
Was on TV the other day, albeit just a small bit.
there was a documentary on juggling and unicycling.
i told my colleagues at work to catch it.
to my horror i read the TV listing and it says the documentary is on cyber gaming.
gd thing the listing was wrong, i can imagine all of them giving me stick the next day for making them go home early to watch cybergaming.
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This, is one strange MSN session with a friend i haven't spoken to for over 2 years.
Him: "r u getting married soon or something? it's common to many of my friends."
Me: "haha..no...fortunately, or unfortunately, no"
Him: "i c. erm , u r erm........dunno if i should ask, but u r straight right?"
Me: "yes i am, thanks for asking. are you?"
Him: "of course"
Me: "that's cool"
Him: "it's gdto be straight"
Me: "not good to be homophobic though"
Him: "have u slimmed down or something?"
Me: "you ask strange questions for someone i haven't caught up for 2+ years........"
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Overheard in the audition room:
"You're in NTU right? in engineering?"
"Do i LOOK like someone who is in engineering? no way man, i'm in mass comm"
I hate it when pple diss off engineering like that.
Engineering is really not as boring as pple make it out to be.
In the workplace (and maybe only there), you see the beauty of it.
the beauty of creating something tangible from nothing.
the beauty of understanding and making something work.
it really is a nice place to be in if you're surrounded by intelligent pple of the same frequency whom you can bounce around ideas with and get the eureka moment.
maybe that's all i need.
maybe, that's all i need.
haven't been happy for a while now.
since Feb maybe?
it's like a prolonged PMS..a sense of dullness that you can't snap out of.
not good.
just the other day i was upset enough to start riding the unicycle again.
i figured if i was gonna kill myself might as well do it by unicycling.
the unicycle has become the symbol of unsurmountable challenges.
maybe if i can ride it, i can overcome anything.
but i can't, so that sucks.
--------------------------------------
met up with Jen the other day, at a Hong Kong styled cafe.
it's an interesting place with good service but the food sucks.
hong kong dim sum in singapore doesn't taste that bad.
so we were catching up, and she went:
"you know what i notice about you RGS girls, you are all too self centred."
"that doesn't sound like a compliment..."
"it's not."
"thanks ah..."
i think it's because we're tuned towards a more Western form of thinking of personal independence. Add to that, the talk of empowerment and you have girls with ambitions they're not shy to reach for.
Just the other day i was discussing with my boss and colleague on the benefits of an all girls school. "you tend to be a bit more vocal and strong", i said,"it seems to me that in a mixed school the girls tend to be more meek in the presence of boys."
Jen and i also talked about her TV star friend.
"so what has she been up to?"
"shooting adverts for Olay"
"Olay? the potato chip?"
"Olay the brand of makeup! since when was there Olay potato chip?!"
-------------------------------------
so i signed up for an audition a few weeks back, just for the heck of it.
when the audition list came out, i saw the actress of MediaWorks Ah Girl fame in the same batch.
Lagi best.
Me with my totally zero experience together with her the household name.
Never realised what an actor's resume looked like and what a headshot was until i sat down to make one.
only really memorised my audition monologue at midnight yesterday (for the audition today).
before that i was nuah-ing around trying to convince myself that i should skip the audition.
it's funny how these things go.
no matter how much i tried to dissuade myself, i knew that i was going.
quite a different experience from my previous job interview, where my head kept telling myself to go but my heart just knew it was not to be.
so down i went to NAFA today.
waited for abt an hr for my turn.
did some small talk with the others and they were saying how calm i was for a first timer.
i did have a minor panic attack waiting at the door just before going in, was worried about forgetting my lines.
it all went pretty well.
the adrenaline rush of auditioning in front of a group of directors was worth the wait and preparation.
somehow a different person emerged while on stage.
it's hard to describe, it's like stepping into another zone.
anyway, hope i get in, it'd be fun i think, to be involved in a professional play.
--------------------------------
Was on TV the other day, albeit just a small bit.
there was a documentary on juggling and unicycling.
i told my colleagues at work to catch it.
to my horror i read the TV listing and it says the documentary is on cyber gaming.
gd thing the listing was wrong, i can imagine all of them giving me stick the next day for making them go home early to watch cybergaming.
-----------------------------
This, is one strange MSN session with a friend i haven't spoken to for over 2 years.
Him: "r u getting married soon or something? it's common to many of my friends."
Me: "haha..no...fortunately, or unfortunately, no"
Him: "i c. erm , u r erm........dunno if i should ask, but u r straight right?"
Me: "yes i am, thanks for asking. are you?"
Him: "of course"
Me: "that's cool"
Him: "it's gdto be straight"
Me: "not good to be homophobic though"
Him: "have u slimmed down or something?"
Me: "you ask strange questions for someone i haven't caught up for 2+ years........"
-----------------------------------
Overheard in the audition room:
"You're in NTU right? in engineering?"
"Do i LOOK like someone who is in engineering? no way man, i'm in mass comm"
I hate it when pple diss off engineering like that.
Engineering is really not as boring as pple make it out to be.
In the workplace (and maybe only there), you see the beauty of it.
the beauty of creating something tangible from nothing.
the beauty of understanding and making something work.
it really is a nice place to be in if you're surrounded by intelligent pple of the same frequency whom you can bounce around ideas with and get the eureka moment.
maybe that's all i need.
maybe, that's all i need.
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