it's been an ok day
i think i'm becoming a workaholic
the good part is, time flew by without me knowing
that's got to be a good thing, since time flies when you're having fun

the bad part is, my bedtime is 10 plus and i get back at 8
which doesn't leave me much time since cooking and washing the blardy pots take an hr plus
and nua-ing in front of the telly takes time too

i've been sleeping very soundly here
it's either the cold weather and my warm bed or something
i hate it when i get up in the mornings
i'm so not a morning person
the plant runs 24 hours
and i've been telling them the 2nd shift (4pm to 12 am) suits me best
i can stay up all night if they just let me sleep in

it would have been a good day if i didn't get annoyed near the end
petty politics
it's almost like being in school again
i didn't wanna get sucked in and in the end got the black wok
it's nothing vicious, but it can get annoying

i've been taking it with a pinch of salt so far
i take it like they're just kidding
i'm currently trying to figure out if they ARE just kidding
so i've been pretty flippant and dismissive abt that so far
but sometimes exaggerated borderline truths can be misleading yes

i find it amusing that because i seldom get annoyed, when i DO get annoyed, it's not taken as a small deal.
not that it's a big deal, but i think it does make the party who annoyed me go "oh oh".

keke.

but it's ok here. most pple are nice most of the time. i try not to bear grudges and i think of their good side and all is fine.
W says with exasperation that i'm naive and "always see the good side in people!!"
heh. i take that as a compliment. (he sure didn't mean it as one)
He's exasperated cos he's complaining to me about stuff and i kept giving him the bright side to it.

i still have a long way to go to big hearted-ness, like good Buddhists.
there are still some gripes i can't let go, and i know that's not good.
oh well.

sometimes i can see the equivalent of the workplace to Survivor
it can get depressing, too much negativity and bad energy surrounding me
i won't get involved
i'd like to think character shines through in the long run
i'd like to think that will bring me to heaven and good karma and i'll get 3 husbands and 6 cars

speaking of buddhists
i went to a buddhist gathering on sun
it was in a chinese professor's house
among the things i learnt were
1) how the moon was created from the earth
2) a good way to terminate cockroaches is spray soap on them
3) a taiwanese scientist recently proposed a fifth state (state as in solid, liquid, gas, amorphous)
4) how water crystallises into different forms when exposed to different kinds of music (you should check out the crystal for heavy metal)

after 1 hr 45 min the prof realised this should be a buddhist lesson and the last 15 min was used for that.

it was a pretty cool gathering.
very buddhistic. lots of calmness, wisdom, cheerfulness.
i wish there were more young pple there though
then it will feel less like i was in the live audience of Fang Tai's cooking class

so most of today was spent in the meeting room where we had some lessons on the circuit board
it was fun
i love it when i'm learning stuff
it's during the slow periods where there's nothing much to do at work that i feel directionless and get depressed

anyway we spent most of the day in the quiet office area
W:"this place is so quiet it's like the hospital!"
after the lesson we went back to the manufacturing floor
and i suddenly realised how vibrant and energetic the floor was
and i was glad then that i dun work in general offices that girls are bred for
(one of my relatives certainly made it clear what he thought of girls in engineering and girls in business)

another thing this job has done for me
is now i'm inclined to think everything can be fixed.
this job is basically abt fixing machines that have torn apart after all.
plenty of patience and pain sometimes, but it can be fixed.

i also love my status now as an "attachee", "junior engineer", "trainee", "little one", "little sister", "grasshopper"
it gives me a license to be dumb
so i get away with being blur and asking questions that i should have remembered from school
many of the experts have been really patient with me too
which means i get to learn more
which also means i get questions like "what's with you and old guys? they love talking to you!"

damn it's getting late
i still need to wash the blardy pots
who needs a weighing machine
when my pants are getting tighter and my bike tyres are going flat.